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so I am not one to get stressed. I dont stress about bills, kids, hubby, house, etc. What do I stress about you ask? SCHOOL! I am feeling a little overwhelmed I must admit. Today was the official first day of my last semester of nursing. I did pass my Math exam with a 100% which you would think would boost my confidence up. It didnt. I was so unprepared for class today. I am a last minute studier. I usually just study the day of an exam. I have run into past students and all they keep telling me is to read, read, read for 4th semester cuz you have to UNDERSTAND it to pass. well.. over my xmas break I picked up on extra work with my nanny job. I worked days and nights so that I could pay for school this semester and not have to charge it. I have worked SUPER hard to get our credit card down and make a nice cushion for our savings account. I was not even thinking about school. So here is today the first day of school, and I am hit with a ton of homework which some are due tomorrow, and the rest friday... not to mention my "readings" I have never done before. The way this semester works is it is only 9 weeks.. yes 9 weeks of lecture! But every other week is an exam, so my first exam is next tuesday. I am still working on the weekends, and I am starting softball up again on Thursdays. I know a normal person would quit the above things, but to me, those are "MY" things. I love softball and I enjoy bringing some extra money in. I know I may have to if I do not do well on my first exam, but as of right now, I wont. Most of all I feel so bad for Sam and the girls. I go to school on wed and thursdays from about 6am to about 730-8pm. I wont see them until the weekends basically. I know I can get through this, and I will definitely have times like this where I just want to scream to let it all out, but I just pray that God gives me the strength and perseverance to keep on going.--------after I wrote this I went to my fridge to find this from Sam. I am so lucky and really needed this!